When I was really young my parents got divorced. I grew up not knowing my Bio Dad and not having a close Father/Daughter type relationship with my Step-dad. Most of my girlfriends all had that close relationship with their dads. You know what I mean, where Daddy is the best guy in the World, when he gets home from work you run to give him a hug, it's no big deal to just curl up on Dad's lap while you both watch TV. I never understood it, but I knew instinctively that I was missing out on something. It bothered me for many years and is probably why for too long I allowed myself to fall for the wrong kind of guy just to feel like a man cared for me.
When I was pregnant with Austin and found myself alone living with friends I started going to Church and rededicated my life to the Lord. One night I was laying in my bed thinking of my baby soon to arrive and really feeling the "loss" of a DADDY throughout my life. I was crying and asking God why I never was allowed to have a Daddy/Daughter relationship like so many of my friends had with their dads. This was His answer to me:
"MY Child, you have never been without a Daddy. I've ALWAYS been with you."
That night I finally got it and have never forgotten, even when I have wandered off my own way. God is my Daddy, He is the greatest Daddy I could ever hope or dream of having.
2 comments:
Wow, that's beautiful. I'm glad you shared that. The painful memories in our lives help us to do it right for our own children.
God bless you sister, thanks again,
SharonSharon
p.s. Sorry for the anonymous version of posting, I don't do it very often, and I have a hard time keeping track of my passwords.
I meet Andrey and Vika. They need families quick. I agree!
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