Sunday, November 25, 2007

Blowing Kisses.......

This has got to be one of the most AWESOME videos I have ever seen. And I can attest to the fact that it is absolutely real.

This morning at church a lady who works for Bethany Christian Services shared an experience she had with a set of expectant parents. They came in to confirm their pregnancy and see an ultrasound of their baby. As they were about to finish the ultrasound they said "I love you" to their baby and this is what they received in return:

How amazing is that!? The video was posted to YouTube by Erik Whittington, Director of Rock for Life.

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Did we really throw away the tree?

Unfortunately, yes, we did.

Last year Hubby and I decided our old artificial was too old and we should toss it and get a nice new one when they all went on sale. Well, we remembered to toss the old one and forgot to buy a new one! So, we went to get the tree down after Thanksgiving and all we could find was the stand. AYE YI YI!

Since we are really hoping to start our HS as soon as we can I am determined not to spend a bunch of money on a tree. I wish we could still do like my dad used to. Just go out in the woods and come back with a tree. Is that even still legal? Never mind, don't answer that.....

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Dream a Little Dream.......

I keep having dreams about my daughter. Sometimes I get discouraged because this whole process can be so unpredictable. First we were adopting from China, then when China changed rules we looked to Vietnam, then the agency we were using turned out to be unethical. So now we are looking at as many waiting child lists as we can, hoping to eventually find our daughter that way. We even thought about just trying to get pregnant through IVF. I just can't bring myself to go that route when I know that there are so many children who need homes.

Last night I had another dream about traveling and bringing home a baby girl. I've had similar dreams and the little one is always Asian and always around 8 months old. And I usually(in the dream) always forget that I have a new baby and leave her in the nursery at church or forget to take her with me when I leave the house. Then I'm running trying to get back to her and bawling my eyes out!! SO UPSET WITH MYSELF!! What in the world do these dreams mean? I wake up from them missing my baby and feeling like they are signs that I will be a bad mom. Is this normal for moms who adopting?

One thing that I do think is that maybe these dreams are to keep me trudging along this path. That we do have a daughter out there and that we just need to keep keeping on and we will find her. I really hope that that's it. And that I'm not going nuts.

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Thanksgiving State of Mind

++I actually posted this last year on a blog I used to have on Xanga. I was reading through it before I deleted it and decided to bring this one over here. Hope it speaks to someone, I needed to be reminded myself.++

I have been learning lately that so much of being happy with your life, your family, your spouse, your job is all about your state of mind. We need to make the decision that we are going to love ourselves, love our spouse, love our children, try to love our jobs. That's not to say you just put on a happy face and accept all the things that might not be exactly right about those relationships, but "Love covers over a multitude of sins". Things can begin to change when you make the decision to love that one or to be happy in your present situation (if that situation is unhealthy, please don't stick around).

I know some people who have made the decision to be miserable, to hate everything that has ever happened to them and to blame everyone and be a victim. They are not much fun to be around and they tend to make others feel miserable too after a while. And it's sad because they are missing out on so much of life. Sure there are going to be problems in every life. Heartaches, and people will do mean things to you sometimes, but you have to choose to move on. To put those times behind you, to continue to live life and find the joy that can be had.

In this season of Thanksgiving let's all find something to be thankful for. You do have something, I know it. And it's funny how once you find one you can usually find another and once they start adding up you just can't help but start to feel TRULY thankful.

Friday, November 9, 2007

Oh Lord, It's Hard to be Humble....

Well, maybe for you. But, not for me......check out my Pilgrim Name:

Your Pilgrim Name Is

Humility Moore

And, I didn't even make that up!

Thursday, November 1, 2007

Thanks alot CSI

Thanks to CSI I am not going to be able to sleep tonight. I knew it was going to be scary. I saw the previews tonight before it came on and they were enough to scare me. I know, I'm a scaredy-cat. I am just SO addicted to that show that I couldn't stay away. I need CSI rehab.

Oh well, I'll just lay in bed and read Harry Potter. It'll probably scare me too. Yep, scaredy-cat.